The Sine Wave of Healing...

Hi Everyone!


Before I dive into today's commentary, I did identify that hawk from yesterday's blog. It is an immature Sharp Shinned Hawk. And, they feed on little birds.


Copyright Eileen Nauman 2006
Here is Cinnamon with her fly mask on, her leg wrapped in the Unna's boot enjoying her monring grass. She is let out to roam our fenced in acerage every day. And she loves it and we love having her out with us. It's all about sharing space 'with all our relations' in a peaceful manner.


Epiphany is always followed by a period of quiet or what I term ‘digestion’ of the aha. This happens to everyone; not to just a select few. And one of the things we can do to help this change and transformation along is to try and see the macrocosm of what is going on, if possible.


Copyright Eileen Nauman 2006
Life if perfect but we aren't. But we can learn from everything around us on how to be attuned and a PART of it all--which will help us to get in touch within ourselves. After all, all things are an outer reflection of us, inwardly. And when we look at at a water lily....what do we see? This water lily can show us how we could feel inside ourselves if we could touch the peace that each of us have. A flower can reflect. Are you a water lily? Does this flower give you a sense of serenity? Of calm? Of quiet inner relfection? For some people, this photo of this flower could be a meditation of its own that will lead them deeper into themselves as a tool for their own healing--and eventual connection with the peace within them.



There are some laws in the universe. A great book that elaborates upon these laws is by author, Dan Millman. And his book it is called, The laws of Spirit, A Tale of Transformation. This is the man who wrote “Way of the Peaceful Warrior.” I supposed I should have ‘got it’ that when Linda M. and I saw the movie at the Sedona Film Festival about two months ago--that I had earmarked this author and how he saw the world, to help me find the tools to get me into a better place within my world. But, of course, I didn’t. Most of us don’t; although we can learn to nurture and cultivate a wider ranging awareness of what we are drawing to us has something--directly--to do with us. Otherwise, it wouldn’t be in our field of vision or consciousness.


Copyright Eileen Nauman 2006
If you were to unfocus your eyes, sit quietly and relaxed, and look upon this lovely pink water lily, magic may happen...why not try it?


Because of my Native American training, I am more aware of my surroundings and tend to try and comprehend what it means to me and my space/self. But, the movie, Peaceful Warrior, slipped right off my radar screen!


Copyright Eileen Nauman 2006
Having to go back over to Prescott today, on the way home, there was a wonderful thunderstorm dumping rain--and shortly after photographing this, we got to drive through it! The car got washed and the land got a wonderful drink of water.

Well, it’s back on it now ;-). Today, I did myself a couple of favors. First, I ordered Millman’s two books: Peaceful Warrior and Socrates. I want to read them because I know there are some tools in there that I can use.

You see, the cosmic joke is this: people/books/things we read/view/experience all can help us. They help us when we’re ready to be helped, but not before that. I had to fight my particular situation for two solid years before hitting my personal ‘brick wall’--getting slapped down--breakdown for a breakthrough as I call it--before I got it and said: okay, I gotta do something else here because this clearly is not working. Nor was I happy or anything like my ‘old self.’


Copyright Eileen Nauman 2006
Here is our murky western sky tonight with no chance of getting a colorful sunset. Still, the moodiness of the sky reflected how I was feeling inside today--one moment sure and confident, the next, a puddle of doubt. As above, so below....


Of course, my old self is what kept me trapped or embroiled in this two year ongoing event. So, ‘old self’ needed to reinvent itself, so to speak.

My metaphysical training comes in handy at crisis/critical times like this. To be sure, we all have these times. That is what puts us together in a common pot of stew and hopefully, it creates the soup of compassion out of it. Those who experience Dark Night of the Soul can, after living through it and making the changes, can feel deeply for another person struggling to go through the same thing. And often, they can help because they have ‘been there, done that.’


Copyright Eileen Nauman 2006
And a little to the northeast, was this magnificent group of clouds--dark and light--and sky! Also reflective of me from the inside out...

But, back to my metaphysical upbringing. Everything in the Universe has an up and down motion to it. As a homeopath, we call this the ‘healing curve’ or in electronics it is known as the ‘sine’ wave. If you were to draw a simple roller-coaster like line that had ups and downs in it--you have it.

I know that in our down times are times when we have chosen to draw a person/place/thing to us so that we can learn, mature and grow from it. Usually, this is a painful thing for we don’t seem to learn without pain being applied (unfortunately).


In our ‘up’ times, this is ‘after the storm’ of being down at the bottom of the barrel crawling around on our hands and knees, blind as a bat, and unsure which way is up, that we get some kind of peace, quiet times, rewards or pat on the head from the Universe for having gone through it--and survived it. It might not have been pretty--but you did survive it. And that’s all that counts.

So, our entire life is a roller coaster. We have ups and downs. Just like a teeter-totter going up and down. The ups are the good times, the relief, the quiet periods, the happy times, the career rewards, ect. The downs are when shit happens, to put it bluntly. Even shit can be turned into compost. Did you realize that? Yep. And our personal shit that we crawl around in, are pained and anguished by and through, is really turning us, inwardly, into good, rich compost material.


Copyright Eileen Nauman 2006
Here are some turbulent, reflective monsoon clouds coming over the eastern wall of Echo Canyon.

For compost material is the richest organic ‘food’ in the world. And what we are trying to do is turn out wounds, our darkness from festering bacteria into compost. We want to take the sterile inner parts of ourselves that are wounded and alchemically transform them into compost or a rich, nutritious soil base, instead. And so, we go from an inner soil that can support no growth, to a soil that not only supports growth, but it will enrich us in every way.


Copyright Eileen Nauman 2006
Later, the clouds on the eastern horizon changed completely and this looked like a group of ocean waves in the sky to me. Good ole water symbol of emotion! Even reflected in the sky beings for my benefit.

Being a gardner and having two huge compost bins, I’m very familiar with compost so it’s a great parallel for me to speak from.

And if we don’t deal with our inner wounds, we have darkness and we also have imbalance within us. And just consider this from a metaphysical and energy angle: if our wounds are taking up 50% of our inner space/energy within ourselves, just think what could happen if we work through them, discharge them and release them. Why, we’d have 50% space for rent for something to come in. And of course, Nature abhors a vacuum, so as soon as you emotionally work through a wound it leaves and in it’s place, a cornucopia of good, positive, healthy things move in to take it’s place. That is not a bad deal. Getting there is hell, to be sure. It’s painful. It’s ongoing. It’s not fun. But that’s what life is about. The minute, hour and day things we all grapple with consciously or unconsciously. And isn’t it nice to know there’s a brass ring at the end of it all--our reward if you will--for doing the hard work.

So, tonight, I’m reading the first chapter in Millman’s book and digesting it; absorbing it, comparing it to my life presently to see where and how I can consciously change with the tool he suggests. That’s how changes are made. At least for me.

We are never alone and we never fight through things alone. Whether we know it or not, we have guides (angles) who might be invisible to us, but they are there for us and support and help us all the time. And on this side of the veil, we have good friends who love us despite ourselves. That’s the good news.


Copyright Eileen Nauman 2006
I love this picture of the clouds to the southeast of the canyon wall, coming up and over Deer Mountain as I walked back down into the canyon tonight. Even in all our pain, our unsureness, our confusion, there is a beautiful creation taking place within us -- whether we know it or not. And out of this chaos comes change and new order just as these clouds forecast.



The rest of the news is: we have to do all the hard work ourselves. No one is going to do it for us . No one can protect us from it. And that is how we grow. Through pain. Through experience. It is nice to know that the universe will reward us for our efforts. And toward that end, there was no sunset tonight because of all the monsoon storms around. So, here is a lovely reminder by Mel M. who took these photos of a double rainbow on 8.9.06 after monsoon rains over Echo Canyon--rainbows. Double rainbows. And that is what I love about storms--even though they are furious and life-changing at the time,and we’re getting tossed around like a cork on the ocean of life, the rainbow that comes after is a promise of a better, happier time and rewards ahead.


Copyright Mel Metzler 2006
Here is the rainbow as it is forming and you can barely see the second rainbow....and just to the left of it all is House Mountain/Echo Canyon--we were blessed!

And then, the rainbow intensified and became two!



Copyright Mel Metzler 2006
Here is the double rainbow Mel photographed around 7:00 p.m. on August 9, 2006 right at sunset. This rainbow was over the House Mountain/Echo Canyon area. That was the night I didn't walk because it was pouring rain. And although I missed the rainbow--Mel was lucky enough to get it!


In Spirit....