Hawks and Sunsets....

Hi Everyone

Sundays...don’t you love them? The really are a day off...or maybe...a day ‘different’ from the others. The fixed rut routine of the 5-day a week workweek is gone. This is when chaos reigns supreme.

On our hike tonight, the monsoon looks like it’s coming back--yippee. The sky was a lot more turbulent and mixed. I guess I really DO prefer chaos! At least it’s varied and interesting. But there’s something to say for the routine of a rut, too.

I was still cleaning up my hogan, putting out my favorite stones and hanging my pictures up on the eight walls where they had been, before Flood of ‘04. And then, I ran into some photos and oh, what a surprise!!

Back in the summer of 1999 my mother, Ruth, had a chicken coop up above on the non flood plain area of our property. One day, I was going up to see my horse, cinnamon, who was sleeping in the corral. I heard a helluva commotion in the hen house, right next door. I ran over there and inside is a Sharp Shinned Hawk!!! It had flown in, I think to get one of the small half grown chicks as a dinner. And gotten trapped. He was fluttering wildly to get out.


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Here's the Sharp Shinned Hawk who invaded my mom's chicken coop


I ran down the stairs, to the greenhouse, grabbed our large bird net and ran back up the stairs. By that time, my Mom had heard the hens screaming and shrieking and had run up to see what ws wrong.


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Here I am with the bold little fellow. As I talked to him, he would look up and study me with his red eyes. It was such a cool experience! Never once did he struggle to get free or did he try to peck me. He knew we were not going to harm him.


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As I talked to the Sharp Shinned Hawk, he would study me with focused, full attention; as if he heard what I was saying. I'm sure on some level, he felt my love and respect for him. I loved his unerring attention to my voice when I spoke quietly to him.



She thought it might be the desert fox or a skunk attacking the hen house during the daylight hours.

Nope, just a feisty, beautiful Sharp Shinned Hawk! I finally caught him and I didn’t want to hurt him. Dave helped me undo the netting around his yellow legs and made sure his wings and tail wouldn’t be hurt either. Then, he went and got the camera and I walked down below so some photos could be taken.


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Here's a nice three-quarter photo of the Sharp Shinned Hawk. They're small but I think, very beautiful.


I had completely forgotten about this incident until I saw the photos once more. So, I scanned them in so you could see them too. Seeing the Sharp Shinned Hawk last week--and getting some pretty poor photos of it in the vineyard--brought all this back.


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Here's a nice close up of the Sharp Shinned Hawk. You can see the top of his beak is bleeding a little because he was trying to fly out of the window with wire on it.

I was wondering if the young, immature hawk of last week was the ‘son’ of the ‘father’ that I’d caught in the hen house back in 1999. Isn’t it amazing how things go full circle?


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Here's another photo of the Sharp Shinned Hawk watching me as I spoke. What an attentive young man he was! We let him go shortly after the photos were taken. And he continued to live in our canyon and still hunt our chickens--but he never made the mistake of flying into their pen to get them! Lesson learned!


I was thinking about the hawk as we huffed up Cardiac Hill tonight. It was getting kind of muggy again--an indication that Monsoon was moving in. There was a very dark Thunder Being in the southeast as we started out and I wondered if we’d get rained on. Rain would have felt good--it was so hot and the air so still.

On the eastern horizon a storm coming up looked like a profile of a Thunder Being’s head and he was blowing wind out of his lips! Take a look at this photo below and see if you agree!


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Here is the Thunder Being blowing the wind from his lips. Do you see his head in profile?



Everything was quiet on the ground tonight; nothing going on that I could see. The sunset was spectacular and there were plenty of clouds of different shapes and sizes to make it look like an abstract painting tonight.


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Here is one of the palette paintings by Mom Earth; beautiful pinks!

Then, Sue came up with her dogs, Carly and Prancer! She was alone; Mark decided not to ride his ATV tonight--but what a delight to see her and the doggies.


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I call this the orange feather cloud over Sedona area at sunset.


Carly and Prancer both came over to where I was sitting on my photo rock, to greet me. Of course, Rocky was happy to see his two girlfriends too. Good thing he’s neutered!!

The sunset went from gold to orange and then pink.


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Not to be outdone, later to the northeast in the reverse sunset, Mom Earth chose pink and magenta brushes to put her strokes across Father Sky.


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Here is the oranges becoming dramatic in the northwest.

We had a reverse sunset as well, and an interesting ‘feather’ like cloud in the north in the Sedona area.


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Here is Sue with Carly, Prancer and Rocky in the background. We're getting ready to hike back down into the canyon.


I felt like Mom Earth had gotten out her palette tonight and was really going to town and in a highly creative mode. But you be the judge....


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And here's the official sunset for 8.20.06

In Spirit....

Living in the Moment EXAMPLES

Hi Everyone!


I’ve been going through a huge, internal evolution and deepening and widening of my consciousness. Thanks to the experiences I’ve had of late, this has allowed me to go through a door that had been closed earlier.


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When I asked my Mom, who is 89,what she wanted that she didn't have in her life, she said a rose garden. In January of this year, Dave and I set about creating a heart shaped rose garden for her. Now, when she goes out the side door of her mobile home, there are roses to greet her, a heart to remind her that we love her, and flowers to celebrate her many years of life.


I’m focusing in on two things that are helpful to me and where I’m at within myself. First of all, we all go through these ‘gyrations’ as I call them. If you were to look at spiral that was large at the bottom and narrow at the top, we are all somewhere on this ‘spiral of evolution’ as I refer to it.


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Last night as I hiked, I had a feeling a cloud spirit was 'stalking' me. I looked up to feel the source of energy--and there he was! A 'baby' thunder being. Can you see him? Just follow the darkness outline and you'll see a chubby human-like figure. The cloud remained on station and did not move while I was up at Sunset Point last night--it was a magical moment. I laughed, pointed at the Thunder Being and said, "Caught ya!" and I could feel everything laughing with me, including him, in that moment. A cloud stalker....



When we are getting read to shift and move to the next level of our personal spiral, some event/person/place/thing occurs to catapult us into the position of making a free will CHOICE to continue to move upward or stay stuck where we are.

One thing that the Cosmos abhors is static positions because one of the Laws is MOVEMENT/CHANGE and usually, for us two-leggeds down here on Mom Earth, that translates into CHAOS. Change for us, is usually a chaotic event. We are thrown out of our comfortable rut of life and then we flounder around like a fish out of water. And like a fish, we are trying to get back into the water that is familiar and brings on the fixed sameness.

We all resist change. Large or small.

And many of us are very interested in making spiritual inroads into ourselves this lifetime and become a better human being on all levels and ways. But how to do this?

Like the fish out of water, we are flipping and floundering around, gasping and in a panic.

A few blogs back, I talked about living in the moment. This is one of two Cosmic Laws that I’m focused in on minute, hour, day, week and will continue to do so into my future. When you read something that says: “live in the moment” most of us are nonplussed by this or what it really means or worse, how to go about doing it.

I’d like to take this blog and give you a few concrete examples that might be of guidance to you.


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Here is a gorgeous shot of a Blue Morning Glory.


Experience one: my husband was in a dither over losing an attachment on an email he’d sent to me. He’d worked hours on this email. Only to find that he’d screwed up in sending it to me and all his changes were lost. That meant hours of redoing what he’d just done. Instead of hooking and connecting into it, I just stayed right where I was--inside me. I acknowledged his need to gyrate and react. But I didn’t need to fix it or get involved in it. I gave him his due space to explore his entire reaction to what he was doing without getting involved in it. I realized if I stood quietly in my space, that I was respecting and honoring his dilemma. I also did not add MY energy to it--which would have made it change--perhaps more difficult for him or maybe, easier--but my CHOICE in that MOMENT was to stand quietly, stay out of it in a detached, loving manner, and allow him to go through his full range of motions.

What happened? Well, magic happened. When he was done I offered to look at his computer and the email because he’s not a geek at all and does rely on me to figure out things like this. I retraced his steps on the email and the attachment. I put the attachment from his email software to his desktop. It appeared that it was the old document and not the one with his changes. So, I got up and left and he sat down to do it all over again. About five minutes later, Dave told me all his changes were there. Boy, was he happy.

My lesson in this living in the moment was allowing Dave to do what he had to do without my intercession of energy. After he was done, I offered to look at his email. And that’s all I did, and walked away. I had no attachment to the outcome.

And magically, there were all his edits! I kind of smiled to myself about this and saw the wisdom of me living in the moment. Before, I’d have taken part in his explosion of emotions, gotten hooked in, tried to ‘fix it’ and felt frustration over the fact he refuses to learn because he hates computers. And frustrated that he relies on me, instead. All of this ‘stuff’ was not put into play simply because I lived in the moment, listened, was compassionate, but did not get involved. I allowed Dave the space he needed.

A second experience: This morning my cat, Jawee (Navajo for “he hears but he does not listen”) came rowing around me as I was trying to sit down and compose this blog. I instantly, for a split second, felt angry at the cat because he was fat, over weight, and I’d fed him this morning already--and the pig was back for more. And Jawee knew that if he rowed around me enough, that I’d get tired of it and I’d get up and go give him some more food. That was the game we played.

Well, as soon as I felt that niggle of anger and frustration, I stopped myself. I looked down at him, laughed, petted him and went on with what I was doing. He got the message. Loud and clear. And walked off and left me alone. The game of energy was broken because I stayed in the moment and didn’t allow the cat to hook me into his drama or needs.

A third experience: Yesterday, Saturday morning, I was out in our large garden. My basil (Genovese, Lemon and Cinnamon) were all ready to be harvested, cut and hung upside down to dry. My dill was also ready. I really wanted to hone in on ‘the moment,’ with what I was doing.


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Here are the herbs, picked hours earlier and now hanging to dry.

I saw the shapes of the leaves, the colors, the distinct fragrance of each of the four herbs. I immersed myself completely into what I was doing. The touch of the leaves, the way light danced across them, how they felt beneath my fingertips, and pretty soon, I felt like I was in the most wonderful world of fragrances I had ever known. I inhaled these scents so deeply into my body. Our inward breath is RECEIVING. This is an important thing to do is breath in deeply for yourself. It is saying, in essence, to the Cosmos, that yes, I am worthy to receive. So many of us, myself included, are shallow breathers....if you watch your breath you will most likely see you either breathe in too little and breathe out too much--or vice versa. Few of us really breath in a balanced manner. And so, with the huge bunches of my beautiful plants tied up and ready to be hung, I allowed myself a full experience. THAT was living in the moment. I heard the Mourning Doves cooing. I heard the Quail nearby chirping. I was aware of my surroundings completely.

And in a way, it reminded me of how I feel when I meditate. Only, I was conscious, fully awake, involved 100% in what I was doing--and meditating with my eyes open. I had no thoughts from the past intrude in. I had no thoughts from the future intrude in. I had nothing but that MOMENT. I could feel the sweat on my upper lip as the heat was getting higher as the sun rose. I could feel the tee that I wore, clinging damply to my skin. I was aware of the wetness of the soil beneath my fingertips.

And a funny thing happened--I felt HAPPY. Completely happy. But even more important, I felt AT PEACE. I felt and breathed in and out, a peacefulness, a calmness, a FEELING from my heart that I was one with the world in those magical moments.

So, those are my three experiences of ‘living in the moment.’ Thus far, I have found that when I do this, things turn out just fine. And that’s because I’m not choosing to force an outcome or an expectation of energy that I’ve added into the mix of drama that is going on. By staying out of it--I allow the COSMOS to come in, with its infinite wisdom, to create an outcome that is right for that person. Not what I wanted for that person--but what the person needed whether he or she knew it or not.

Just as Dave thought he’d lost hours of work; it came back to him. The Cosmos obviously felt he earned the right for that stuff to come back to him. I believe the lesson was for me--not for him--it was an opportunity for me to practice, once again with Dave, to stay in the moment. And when I saw that by staying out of it--it worked out the way it was supposed too--the lesson got driven home to me.

And our cat, Jawee? Well, he sure got the message because when I switched to staying ‘in the moment’ he instantly got up and walked off and left me alone!!! What a thrill to see and feel all of this--and to see that my CHOICE to just LIVE the moment with NO expectation, could make such an amazing change!

As for my herbs; it was simply a sensuous, delightful, healing, full-of-Grace moment where I thanked the plant spirits for their gifts to me and was grateful to be part of such a beautiful wholeness that truly worked.



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The sunset for 8.19.06

In Spirit.....

Endings and Beginnings....

Hi Everyone

Today was a sad and glad day. This morning while going out about my watering duties, I saw a whole bunch of fuschia colored morning glories blooming on Dave’s handrail.


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Here is one of those fancy fuschia colored Morning Glories. Don't they make you smile?

They were stunning and beautiful; just wonderful bright spots of color.


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Here is a gaily decorated handrail with just a handful of morning glory seeds. Think what you could do! And how pretty your place will look if you planted them early next year in the Spring.


I was driving back from Cottonwood after doing my normal Friday running around, and was on our dirt road. We have a ton of ground squirrels in our area. And since Jon had made what we all call the “Great China Wall” of taking the many rocks from his vineyard to make these wonderful stone fences, the squirrels have seen them as ‘the apartments.’ Snakes make their homes in them, and so do mice, pack rats and lots of insects.


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Here are non-monsoon clouds in the sky today. Our monsoon has flowed out of the area. But any clouds are good clouds to me!


Jon was commented--lamenting--that in the last five years or so, the ground squirrel population has exploded around our canyon. He was wondering where the gray desert fox and coyotes were to keep the population in check. I laughed with him about this, but I felt the combo of the rock ‘apartments’ plus the nice, fat, juicy grapes, were too good a draw for the squirrels and so they’ve multiplied much more than normal.

Anyway, today, on the flat of the road, I saw two ground squirrels about thirty feet ahead of me. They exploded out of the brush at the side of the road. I hadn’t seen them until they leaped out. I took my foot off the accelerator and started to brake. One squirrel dove back toward the berm and the other, unfortunately, dashed right in front of my car. I hit the brakes hard, not expecting the critter to do that. I saw him dodge the first tire. I had an awful feeling and slowed down to a crawl. Looking in my rear view mirror, my stomach sank--there, on the edge of the road was a little gray lump.

I felt horrible. I knew I’d hit the squirrel. I backed the van up, got out and went over to see if it was still alive. I was hoping it was just knocked out. But no such luck. The big, beautiful gray squirrel was dead. I told it was I sorry and I prayed for its spirit and I ask for forgiveness because I hate killing anything. I gently picked him up and I laid him in the grass next to the apartments. I knew that it was his time to go. We all die--it is only what we choose to die from and to decide when to leave our physical body. As I stroked its soft, gray fur, I knew that perhaps tonight, the gray desert fox, a Great Horned Owl, a coyote, or a skunk, might find the body and have a good meal that would last them days. Nothing is ever wasted in Nature. Dust to dust.

So, the rest of my day was colored with the fact I’d accidentally taken a life. Of course, there are no accidents. I had not purposely zeroed in on the little guy to kill him; just the opposite. But he had chosen his way to transit out of this world and back into spirit in this way. Even though I understand this, I don’t like it. I don’t like taking a life; it just goes against everything within me. I can’t even kill a bug or a spider, much less a snake.

On our hike tonight, as I was going up the first part of Cardiac Hill with Rocky when I heard a “flutter, flutter, flutter” sound. I looked over the stone wall and saw a bird was caught in then netting over the long lines of grapes. I made a mental note to cut short my time taking photos and to get back to the aisle of grapes to try and catch the bird and set it free. Jon does a lot to try and protect birds who want his grapes. He has special netting and is very careful and thorough in tying it off so that birds can’t get in. But if they manage to squeeze in somewhere--then they are as good as dead because they can never get out and they die of dehydration.

I thought; well, maybe I can make up for killing that poor ground squirrel today by rescuing this bird and setting it free. Of course, it’s easier said than done. Jon had given us permission years ago to walk the rows of his grapes when he had to net them off before being picked, to find birds and free them. Dave and I do that and we’re very careful how we do it--we don’t want to rip Jon’s nets, nor do we want to tear up his watering system which is just below where the nets are tied. It’s usually a two-person operation and so as I continued to walk, I wasn’t sure I could rescue the bird at all--it’s ten times harder trying to catch a wild bird in that netting without help. Still....it was something I wanted to do for a lot of reason--one was to salve my guilty conscience for killing the squirrel--take a live, give back a life--kind of thinking...disorted, I know...but I’m terribly human about stuff like this

I met Mark on his ATV just at the top of Cardiac Hill. I asked him if he wanted to let Carly, the little dog, to go with me--because she loves to walk with women vs. riding in the ATV. He said sure and I scooped her out and off we went. Mark zoomed ahead with Prancer, his black and white dog, at the helm and standing up like a hood ornament.


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Carly and Rocky are enjoying a group sniff on the trail tonight.


Rocky loves Carly and he truly enjoyed having the extra company through The Cut and up to Sunset Point. They’d stop, sniff, do their doggy things and then trot on. Carly’s legs are so tiny and Rocky is so long and leggy....it was funny to watch “mutt and jeff” together. It brought me a lot of joy just watching them enjoy their time together.


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Carly and Rocky trotting down the road together--Mutt and Jeff....



The sunset tonight was without monsoon clouds.


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At first the sunset was golden with a few beautiful clouds to add decoration to the sky In fact, our monsoon has left, much like the tide of the Ocean going out, but its supposed to return on Monday. In the meantime, the skies are pretty clear and certainly not as exciting. But, I love all clouds so any cloud is a GOOD cloud!

The sunset was interesting.


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Here is the sunset while it is still got the golden tones



We had just enough clouds to give it ‘character’ and it was golden. I had a quick chat with Mark, gave the doggies their little Milkbone treats and off I went to try and find that bird before it got too dark to find him at all. I was half way through The Cut and looked back, and gosh, the dramatic change of color on the sunset was beautiful--it had turned from gold to a deep red color!

In the vineyard, I found the right row of grapes. I heard the fluttering. I had Rocky on a leash and I put my camera down. The bird (a female Black Headed Grosbeak) was fluttering and flying all the way down to the end of the row. I caught it twice, but it evaded me because I didn’t want to wreck the netting getting to the bird. I knew that eventually, the bird would reach the end--which is the best place to catch them. They get hung up and suspended by netting all around them. Plus, it was getting dark. And I was counting on that to help me get to the little girl.


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Here's the little guy I rescued. And Kiasi helped me identify the bird as a Black-headed Grosbeak--it is a female.



When the bird came to the end I managed to grab it in my fist when it was down near the bottom where the netting is rolled and it’s twisted shut. I was able to ease my hand between the two nets at the bottom and capture the Black-headed Grosbeak. Then, I pulled the opening apart just enough to get her out. The netting was spared and back in place and I had the goofy bird.

I tried taking a couple of photographs of him--they didn’t come out swell--but she was squeaking and fighting and I just didn’t have the heart to keep her captive any longer. It was a sweet feeling to open my hand and allow him to spring out of my palm and into the air. Off she went!


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Helping to save a life is infinitely more pleasant than taking one. But, like life, the scales of Spirit balance as they should be.


I sure felt good then. Relieved. I might have killed an animal and taken it’s life, but Spirit had allowed me a reprieve to show that I could also help save a life and give it back to another animal. Isn’t that just like our lives? Sometimes we get caught up in the netting of our mind, our distortions on life and Spirit reaches in through the netting, captures us, and sets us free?


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Here is that red sunset for 8.18.06



In Spirit.....

Peaceful Evenings...

Hi Everyone

Today was another clean up day. We have a spa--a birthday gift from Dave many years ago and about every three months it needs to be cleaned. I get on my t-shirt and jeans that I don’t care if it gets splashed with bleach and water as I scrub down the insides of the spa after all the water is drained.


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Rocky is taking a break on Cardiac Hill

It’s a two-person job. Teamwork is definitely something that’s needed and welcomed. Dave takes out the filter, cleans it and I scrub the inside of our big tub. When Dave was on his hands and knees earlier, to attach the hose to drain the water, he ran across a scorpion near the opening. Dave reared back, instantly. Dave is a Scorpio and he draws scorpions like I draw snakes.


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As Rocky looked down Cardiac Hill, this is what he saw--our beautiful desert come alive with green grass everywhere! The Monsoons have been more than kind to us--I have rarely seen such green in August.

The scorpion dived under the bottom of the platform and so we need to be careful if we go out there at night--use a flashlight to see where one is putting one’s bare feet is our new motto...


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Here is our Nolina or Bear Grass coming into bloom with tiny white flowers which grows near Cardiac Hill.


I didn’t get to work on the hogan; there was lots of other things going on that demanded my attention instead. One thing I’ve found is ‘go with the flow’ and one learns how to prioritize by what the Cosmos wants me to focus on for the day.


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Here are Desert Four O Clocks backlit by the setting sun on the road.


I did get in editing half a chapter on DARK TRUTH, my second book for Silhouette Nocturne. The more I work on this book, the more I love it for so many reasons. I write on what I call a ‘tri-level’--depending upon where the reader’s expectations are at--my book can be read as pure fiction and entertainment. On another level, it can be instructive about human nature. On another, it has a spiritual component to it. I like books that are multilevel and of course, that’s the kind I write.

The hike tonight was delightful because Dave came along!


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Here is Dave and Rocky on the hike with me....a man and his dog....

He doesn’t very often, but tonight was special and it was a lot of fun. The monsoon was pretty much gone, except for one giant Thunder Being in the northeast cropping up and over the canyon wall--otherwise, a calm, clear, quiet night.


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Here is a thunder being lurking on the northeast wall of our canyon--the only one around. It wasn't a big day for monsoons as they had started to recede once again, like an invisible ocean tide across Arizona.


The sunset was beautiful but not chaotic as it can be. Every once in awhile, it’s nice to have quiet, calm and peace after a storm (or a monsoon...as the case may be....)

While I waited to see what the sunset would bring, Dave took Rocky on the leash and walked up and over the hill to look at our Century Plants.


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Here is a lovely photo of the huge, gigantic Century plant flowers

These are from the Agave Family and once they put out a spike with yellow flowers--the whole plant dies after that.


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Here are the dead Century Plants--after they bloom one time, the entire plant dies.

Talk about your one shot in life! Bam! That’s it! We collect the flowers off one of these plants--with their permission first, of course--and make our Century Plant flower essence which we call the ‘breakthrough’ essence.


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Here is our hill along our road where our beautiful Century Plants grow. We come here yearly, in August, and collect a new year's flower essence from the newly sprouted blossoms.
If a person is stuck--this is a great essence to take daily for a week or two because it definitely has the energy of a sledge hammer behind it.


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Here is a fairly close up photo of the marvelous candleabra-like blossoms that appear on that one spike that shoots out of the middle of the plant.

When you consider the spike, which can be as thick as a woman’s wrist at the base, shoots up in two days--and can be 10 to 14 feet tall--think about the power of that ascent. Think about the power and energy that plant has in order to send that huge spear hurtling skyward to bloom.


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Now you can see why we call Century Plant the "Breakthrough" flower essence....look at all these blossoms shooting outward! This is a flower that grabs life by the throat and goes for it!

It’s an awesome flower essence and we are delighted to hear stories back from people who have used it--and how it has helped them make a personal breakthrough on some level of themselves--be it on the physical plane, a mental attitude, an emotional wounding that needs tending, or to make an evolutionary change in one’s spiritual development.


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There is nothing more beautiful than these true sentinels of the desert at sunset...they are awe inspiring in the quiet as Mother Earth takes her last breath for the night time hours...



We had the big Thunder Being, on the way back down into the canyon, turn a beautiful cotton candy pink!


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Here is our Thunder Being bathed in the sunset light of cotton candy pink I kept thinking that when my zoom lens, the 70 mm to 300 mm arrives late October that boy, oh boy (!) I can zoom in on that craggy, gorgeous cauliflower group of clouds and get a clear, clean, close up of it--wow!

And so we had 'drama' in the northeast tonight, but in the west, where the sun was setting, it was a lovely symbol for my day: peacefulness, calm and a sense of quiet joy.


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Here is our sunset tonight...quiet and peaceful

In spirit....

Living in the Moment...

Hi Everyone!

Today was another day of moving and cleaning. Just like real life--we make a breakthrough and there’s lots of moving--usually of attitudes and emotions--with things being taken out, gotten rid of and replaced with something like more space. Nature abhors a vacuum, and so our new space, if we are conscious and smart, is being provided for something more healthy to come and nestle into us. In order for that to work, we have to stay on top of things; being focused, in our body, grounded and aware. Those are tough things to do in today’s world, isn’t it?


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Here is Mark on his ATV, Linda Metzler to the right and Rocky all having fun up on Sunset Point!


There is so much DISTRACTION on this plane of living, this third dimensional state of ours. And a key to helping ourselves is not getting distracted. And add to this unhealthy recipe, noise, pollution (air, water and ground), family demands, children demands, boss demands, traffic snarl ups, travel nightmares (literally nowadays), and you have a pretty ugly looking cake recipe to deal with.


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Here's a watercolor sunset looking north toward Sedona. Notice the layering and different tones of color.


And through this all, we are being asked to stay focused. What does that mean? For one, it is about staying in your body. If you are a ‘space cadet’, spacy, disorganized, ungrounded, undisciplined, and torn ten different directions--that is being a ‘space cadet.’ When you are out of your body, you get spacy. I’m talking about your astral body, our emotional energy body that is a part and parcel of us. When things get too frantic, too overwhelming, our astral body, who is completely emotional and with no rationalization or logic, begins to slip out of its moorings and anchoring in our third dimensional feet, and drift up and out of the top of our heads--much like a helium balloon heads for the sky. The more we are ‘out of our body,’ the more spacy we are and the less aware and less conscious we are.


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Here's Mark taking a photo of that gorgeous sunset tonight.

Of course, there’s some flawed logic in all of this: if we are out of body, emotionally speaking, we can’t feel all the pain and suffering, worry, agony or grief that we would if our astral body was solidly locked into our physical form from the feet up to our head. Being out of one’s body, however, is like an addiction--it only feels good for awhile, but eventually, you come back into your body and you feel all the bad feelings that you’ve tried to escape and evade by leaving home, i.e., your physical body.

And while we do this avoidance tactic, it only stalls and prolongs the real healing that needs to come--which means anchoring yourself into your physical body and staying put. It’s like gritting your teeth knowing you gotta go to the dentist even though you don’t want too--you now you have too--kind of thing...

If we space out, we are saying we don’t want to work on what we decided to be born into this incarnation to deal with. And sometimes, a soul bites off more than it can chew and comes up short because they took on too much to learn and couldn’t do it all in one lifetime.

Whatever the reason we spaced out or our astral body is hanging out of the top of our head like a balloon waving in the breeze, we can’t really get on with changes until we’re home to do the house cleaning, so to speak.

There’s a lot of ways to stay in your body. The Buddhists hit it right when they said: live only in the present. If you can live ‘in the moment’--and not be thinking about the past or the future--you are truly in your body, grounded and home. Try it. You’ll find it’s really tough to do because our mind has become our master and not the other way around.


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Another beautiful watercolor sunset picture of northern area of Sedona/Red Rocks after the sun had set. Luscious.



If we could have an over view, we’d see that Time is an agreed-upon decision by all of us that it exists. Of course, it doesn’t. Not really. But here, in this world, we say that it does, so it does. Time says we have a past and a present and a future. Do we really? All we really have is RIGHT NOW. This moment. The past is gone. The future has yet to form. So the ability to live in the moment isn’t just some trite Buddhist philosophy--it is a way to live to remain FULLY present for the good, the bad, the ugly and the joyous. Why is that important? Because we came here to learn. And we learn faster, quicker, at optimum, when we focus on present only. If we are hung up on the past (an incident, an event, a bad childhood, a bad parent, a bad ex-spouse, a bad ex-boss.....you put yours here....they all fit), we are tying up a lot of our energy expenditure on something that has already happened and we can no longer change it.

Stop and think about this. It makes perfect sense. The past is GONE. The only thing you can change through your own free will choices is the PRESENT. Letting the past go is a really good thing.


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Another shot of Linda Metzler to the right, Mark on his ATV and Rocky in the foreground. As you can see, Sunset Point is nothing but black lava rock, Juniper and Mormon Tree bushes, and plenty of Prickly Pear Cactus!


Let’s say you have ten dollars of energy money a day to spend on this lifetime. If you are stuck in the past, you might be spending five of your dollars energy on that thing that happened that you cannot change. That means you only have five dollars of energy for the present--half the amount you really need. When we cheat ourselves like this--and we all do this to a little or lot degree--we are robbing ourselves of the fully present PRESENT and all the joys and glories that it can mean.

And let’s look at those who are FUTURE oriented--they worry, have angst, obsess or plan for things that have yet to happen. Certainly, we can PLAN for the future...but to allow it to take over to the point where we worry about some thing about it....that’s going to the extreme and that is when we begin to spend our energy money there, instead of here, in the present where you really can AFFECT a change.

Further, if you could live only in the present--or most of the time in the present--you would get a lot more goodies that are coming to you--but because you are spending or focusing energy money on the past--it can’t possibly manifest because the energy isn’t there to help it become reality. If you were focused only on the present--then you could get a lot more gifts and help from the Universe than you are presently.

Plus....if you could focus only on the PRESENT, that means you are fully in your body. You are present in every way and on every level. That means that you are paying attention to where you are walking, the sounds, the odors, the people or animals or Nature that are around you. You are AWARE. That doesn’t mean you have to be 100% cognizant of everything thing....but there’s not only awareness you are “here” but an appreciation that you are living this one and only moment to it’s fullest and finest. In doing that, this cultivates such beautiful appreciation for all things, including yourself. It creates openings for Spirit to give you even more than you’ve ever had before. It allows you to fully breathe, fully feel and know that you are fully alive.



So many of us are only half alive because we’ve spent half our daily energy money on the past and/or future, and we’re hooked up and entrapped within it.

One of the things I do when my mind (who is not my master any longer--I’m the master--my brain works for me....) starts to get hung up on a specific event in the past, I see a black door come down and shut it off--completely. That allows me to refocus on the here and now.

From Dan Millman’s book, The Laws of Spirit, the Sage says, “Whenever you have a problem, it involves something past or future. You keep problems alive in your present mind by giving them your attention and ENERGY, letting them live rent free in your head. I, in contrast, don’t give them the time of day. Life’s too short,” she said with finality.

Think about this. Rent free in our head. What have we allowed to sit there that is costing us in terms of energy of a given day if we could only refocus it and put it where it can earn us dividends: the present!


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Here's an incredible photo of Sedona/Red Rocks area as the sunset deepened and the veils of rain continued to fall North of us.



I can’t say this enough that if you can just TRY to live in the present, you are truly maximizing your energy and your plans for yourself--to the maximum. We shut doors on possibilities for ourselves because we’ve left other doors called the past and future, open, to bleed and drain of us of the necessary energy that is needed for the present. If your life isn’t going where you want, if you’re not happy with where you are, if things are not going right, if you are meeting so many obstacles and blockages--turn your head, your heart, yourself to the PRESENT and try living in it ONLY.


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Here is Linda Metzler leaning down to pet Carly who is too short to see due to the tall grass--with Rocky next to her.



You may find some other trigger or catalyst or visualization that helps you stop your energy from meandering back to the past and haul 100% of your energy to the present.


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Here is the first of two tarantulas we met on the way home. This male is very young and he toddled along and walked right between my feet. That's how much trust there was between him and me. Linda was glad it wasn't between her feet, hahahaha. She's still learning that tarantulas are very gentle, kind creatures. Some day, she'll let one walk between her feet too.


Give this a try. It isn’t easy. And you’ll stumble a lot. So do I. But every time I do, I get up and keep trying. And you know what? Every day I get a little better at this living in the present only kind of state. And it’s worth it. I take more joy in the moment than ever before. I feel more ALIVE in the moment than ever before. I feel the energy of Spirit coming through me in a stronger, more supportive way as a result. The benefits of this are simply immense. And life-changing. So, give it a try. And let me know what happens!

On our hike tonight, Linda Metzler, who has the Four Elements jewelry, joined me for our walk. Mark came up with his ATV with Prancer and Carly on board. Carly, by the way, is a Chijuajua not a Corgy. I think someone asked me about that. And she’s not Corgy. She’s just cute! We all got to see some spectacular shows tonight. To our North, toward the Red Rocks and Sedona, there was a big thunder being dropping a lot of rain. To our West, we had veils of rain across the landscape. As the sun set, it was a gold, brown color. And then as it got later, it started turning pink/lavender colors to the north. And in front of us, the veils of rain turned pink and then a red-orange color.

With Linda coming tonight, we’re celebrating my cleaned up hogan! After we get done walking, we are going to go to the hogan and drum.

Drumming is paralleling Mother Earth’s heart beat. If you could hear it and feel it (and anyone can with a little work--meditation is a great way to get there), her heart is LIKE A DRUM! It is a slow, deep, bass beat. And it mimics our heartbeat up to a point. When we can synchronize our heart with Her heart--wow--things happen. Usually, drumming can last up to 20 minutes but after that, arms and hands get tired. And after our drumming session, we’re going to meditate. Drumming is an incredible high and really puts your focus back into the PRESENT and NOW as few other things can do. That’s a good reason to drum. There are drumming circles where friends get together and drum...that’s a cosmic high, too.


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Here is a final shot just before we left the top of Sunset Point. This is looking North to Sedona. Beautiful rain veil from a very active Thunder Being in their area.


I was lucky--Linda knows how to play the flute, and she did inside the hogan--the music really resonated beautifully inside the 8-sided structure. Wow.


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Here is the second tarantula we ran into in the vineyard on the way back to the house. This is an old, grizzled male warrior. He's pretty old and you can see he's lost part of one of his long back legs on his right side.



And some other time, I’ll talk about meditation and share what I do with you--and you may or may not find it handy to try yourself. There’s 10,000 ways to meditate. If you find one that fits you, that’s all you need.



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Here is the sunset forming and getting some good color along with veils of rain.


In Spirit....

A Box of Chocolates...

Hi Everyone!

Today was a synchronistic day. Remember our “Road Rager?” that I had talked about in an earlier blog.


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This is a great lesson about how important everyone is. See this morning glory stretching all across our picnic bench in the Gazebo/Greenhouse area? There is ONE pink blossom. Do you see it? Do you realize we're all like that flower? We are each individual, unique and wonderful--and we do stand out--just like this morning glory does!


The guy would stop and block us on our dirt road, get out and scream, yell and threaten us that we were going to fast (25 mph). And we called the sheriff on him time and again. Finally, the sheriff said carry a camera and get this guy on film. And of course, they were visiting him and telling him that no, you can’t block people in two lane traffic and do what you did to them....


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We were in Cottonwood this morning, around 10:00 am and the monsoon thunder beings were really ramping up big and early! It guarantees a lot of storms in the afternoon, for sure--and that's exactly what happened!


So, this went on for a year. But my tool for this was my camera and video camera. That didn’t mean that every time I had to go out of our canyon and drive down that road that I might meet him. And I really don’t do well with that kind of confrontation--but then--no one does.


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As I was leaving Cottonwood this afternoon, this Thunder Being was sweeping down off Mingus Mountain and into the town--really good, thick veils of rain!

Eventually, the second year, he stopped doing it but we didn’t meet him that many times.

Well, today, we met him again. And synchronistically enough, I had just got done reading Dan Millman’s book, The Laws of Spirit. I read a chapter a day and really absorb it. This one was called The Law of Compassion: Awakening our Humanity. And one of several things caught my eye in this chapter (the book is full of glittering gemstones of relevance to all of us--Millman has just such a wonderful way, a simplicity, and examples, that really brings it home to us in a digestible and understandable way...) was a saying by Plato who said, “Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” That really reached deep into me. And is that ever true. Everyone one of us is struggling. All the time.


This is the cover of Dan Millman's book. Everyone should order a copy and read a chapter a day--it can be a wonderful tool to improve the quality of your life down here.


Another powerful example from this chapter was when Millman asked the Sage, “Why not just hate what is hateful?” I think all of us can look back to see that we’ve all done this. The Sage’s words, however, really put it into perspective when she says, “Hate and compassion are different kinds of energy: which do you want to FILL your world with?”

WOW....now, that’s HEAVY DUTY TRUE. And I was feeling my way through these and several other examples of this chapter on compassion when we met--yep--Road Rager! Here was my cosmic test come to roost less than an hour after I read the book. Synchronicity is alive and well as usual! I saw that I had an opportunity to turn someone who hated us for driving fast, into a DIFFERENT energy. And I was going to TRY to do that. And that’s all the Cosmos asks of us--is to try. So, now that you know the ‘rest of the story,’ let me move forward with my test and what happened....

We had a flat tire on the van and so this morning, Dave wanted me to drive it with the spare and he would follow me in the pick up truck to Reese’s Tire in Cottonwood. I knew it would take several hours, but things like this don’t wait. I had just came out of the “Y” and onto Hidden Valley Road (the dirt road) when I saw Road Rager coming in with his big white Dodge Ram dual-axle truck hauling a flat bed with an end loader on it.

I immediately slowed and pulled as far to the right as I could because the guy had a very wide load and there isn’t that much room on the road--and I wanted to give him what I could--out of courtesy. And, I had my Nikon with me--as usual. I saw him roll down the window and wave his arm at me. I thought: uh oh, here we go again... and I took the cap off the Nikon lens, turned it on and let it sit on the passenger seat. For a moment, I thought maybe I should take a picture--but thought--no, he’s not doing anything threatening--yet. So, I listened to my gut and waited.

Again, Road Rager waved his arm out the window of his truck--gesturing for me to come on by him. By this time, he’d stopped. There wasn’t a whole lot of room to get by--but I could do it. I cautiously crept forward. Dave was right behind me. I was wondering if the guy was gonna climb out of his truck, scream, shake his fist at me--and if he did--I knew Dave would bail out of the truck in my defense.

As I pulled abreast of him he smiled! I rolled down my window. I said “Hi.”

“Hey, do you know who plows this road?” he asked me.

“Yes...the guy down in the quarry,” I said. I knew it was him, but I didn’t let on.

“That’s me,” he said, thumbing his thumb toward his chest.

“Oh, well, bless you!” I said, meaning it sincerely. “You have no idea how many times after we have monsoons wash out the road, and we come up and find it graded, that we have blessed and thanked you.”

Well, his face lit up like a candle, his brows moved up, surprise and he actually smiled. He clasped his hands in a prayer-like fashion and said, “Thank you!”

Wow. What a difference from our last confrontation, I thought. I decided to press the advantage. “Listen....what is your name?”

“Fred.”

“Well, Fred, any time you want help after it rains, we’d be more than happy to do that. We’ve often moved rocks and my husband has filled in some of the potholes up there at the road.”

“Yeah, well, that’s okay. Hey, listen, could you do me a favor?”

Stymied by him wanting any favor from me, I said, “What can I do for you?”

“You know that jeep that goes down to your canyon?”

“Yes,” i said, wondering where THIS was going. The jeep was owned by a resident in Echo Canyon.

“That jeep races through here at top speed.”

Here we go, I thought: this guy is obsessed with speed. First it was us. Now, he was fixed at this jeep.

“Okay,” I said.

“Could you tell the driver that driving fast just digs up the road?”

I was surprised he was coming across nice and mild. Even if his request was not mine to act upon. “If I see them, I’ll relay the message.”

“Great. Thanks very much.”

“Sure,” I said. He waved and I waved back.

Boy, what a difference in confrontations. This time, he seemed reasonable, nice and asking instead of being an intimidating bully threatening other people. I drove off thinking that he’d sure changed--but then, so had I. We had both changed. But it also served to show me that while this war was going on we held our strong, firm boundaries with this guy. That we were not going to take his threats lying down and getting run over by him (pardon the bad pun here...)



So, we went to the law and got help and guidance. Plus, the law, I know, visited him a couple of times with dire warnings that if he did it again--he was going to jail. The moral of this story is many. One is: you stand up for what is right, regardless. Two, you ask for help. Three, you always hold out for some kind of compassionate ending to the situation. For all we knew, the guy could have been going through an ugly divorce at that time and was taking out his road rage on us instead of his ex. Or some other awful thing had happened to him and he was projecting his anger and rage at us. I try to be compassionate. I try to understand that the other person may be battling their own demons and that since I don’t know what they are, not to take it personally.

But we do take it personally--we just have to detach ourselves from it and the best way to do that is by being compassionate--understanding there may be other pressures on this individual to cause them to go off half cocked like this.

And, the other moral is being compassionate with him--today--and not lifting my camera to take his photo which I’m sure, would have sent him into a rage--and leaving the camera where it was--a smart move t make. I had listened to my intuition that said: don’t take his photo. And looking back on it, it was the right decision to make.

Lastly, the moral is that things and dynamics can change. As I changed and dealt with my fear of confrontation with a raging stranger/male, and I was given tools to deal with it, i.e., a camera and video camera, that over time, I could deal with him and myself on a better, more peaceful, open level.

So, that was the lesson for today. Full circle after three years with Road Rager. I told Dave I was going to have to change his name to Road Grader and taking out the Rager since he was so pleasant and nice to me today! I hope it lasts!

Still, it serves to show that being kind to others, not getting defensive or posturing or angry, keeps things on a more even keel. It doesn’t always--but this time it worked. And I’d much rather talk with this guy than fight with him. All fighting serves to do is keep the parties in their camp with no chance of compromise or truly solving a problem that one of them sees occurring. In Road Grader’s case, he saw that 25 mph on a dirt road was speeding. It wasn’t--by Arizona law you’re allowed to go as fast as you want on a dirt road per the conditions at that time. So, his need for 25 mph was his need. And he was trying to control us and everyone else to his idea of what the right speed was.

After getting the tire fixed, we at in town at the Golden Dragon--our favorite Chinese Restaurant. Then, did the rest of the running around. I didn’t get any time with moving stuff out of the hogan to my new office today; but life has other demands that we have to flow with and this was one of them.

On the way home, almost at our road where I turned, was a Roadrunner! I shot this photo through the windshield and really didn’t think it would come out--but it did somewhat. Roadrunners are so cool--they’re a big bird and they hunt snakes--even rattlers--and they are ground runners. They fly--but rarely. They’re gawky looking--all long yellow legs and very long black and white striped tail. You look around wondering where Wiley Coyote is!!


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Here's a poor picture, through the window of the van of the Road Runner. Wait until I get my zoom lens!


At our gate, on our wooden box where Fed-Ex, UPS and DHL leave packages for us, there were two packages in there! One was from my publisher, Harlequin--and my reprint of Hangar 13 was in there! Yippee! It is a paranormal book about a woman shaman. And it is available at bookstores September 2006.


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Here is my reprint, Hangar 13! Available at bookstores everywhere come September 1,2 2006. I hope you enjoy it :-).


The other package was from Godiva Chocolates.

Ohhhhh......my favorite chocolates!

About a week ago, an email from Godiva came where they were having a 50% off sale--50%!!! Godiva never has that kind of sale!!! So, I ran over there and I ordered like mad for friends--and of course, for myself. I REALLY splurged. And I sure wouldn’t have done it if the price wasn’t half off. When I got into the house and opened up my box of Chocolates--it was a FOUR POUND Ballotine!! Four pounds!!! I’ve never SEEN four pounds of good chocolate before in my life...but here it was.

WOW!!


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Feast your eyes on this, Choco-holics! This is a FOUR POUND BOX of Godiva chocolates!!! Print this one out and put it somewhere you can drool....wish I could give you some, but cyber chocolate just doesn't have the taste and feel of the real thing!

What a HUGE box!! I had to take a photo of it--I doubt many of you have ever seen a 4 pound box of Godiva chocolates, either!

And of course, my Mom came over and oohed and ahhhed over the box and I gave her a Zip Lock bag and told her to take as much as she wanted. Ruth was like a kid at Christmas!

And Dave came home and spied the big, gold box sitting on the kitchen counter and with his nose, he checked it out--and started to find all the caramels in the first layer of four layers.

I’m sure I’ll be handing out chocolate to my good neighbors, too--no one can eat FOUR POUNDS OF CHOCOLATE by themselves, hahahaha. But what a treat! And half off. That was a gift for myself! A BIG one!

The hike tonight was wonderful because it had been a light rain for almost an hour before I left. And the smells in the canyon were incredible from the mediciney Chaparral, to the sweetness of the Cliff Rose now blooming thanks to so much monsoon rain, to the stringent odor of the hundreds of Junipers that abounded around the area, the clean odor of damp soil and the humidity in the air. The clouds were thick and dark. I wasn’t sure if I was going to get poured on or not, but I didn’t care.

I never know what kind of sunset is coming. I have an opportunity to get a clue as I climb above the vineyard on Cardiac Hill. I saw the clouds were like gray veils on the western horizon and figured that if all things went right, I’d have veils of rain to photograph on the sunset tonight.

I managed to get photos of Desert Marigold from our roadway earlier.



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A Desert Marigold brightens every one's day. This one is was found on our road. What a happy face this one has!


And at Sunset Point, some dainty, tiny Goldfingers had bloomed.



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Tiny, fragile little Goldfingers up at Sunset Point.

I gave my ants their nuts and while waiting for the sky to start its show, I walked across the road. I found an ant pile there and gave them some nuts. On the way back across the road, I spotted a third ant hill and gave them some, too. Rocky got his pint of water and the world was happy. And then, the show began. About this time, Mark came up in his ATV with Prancer, his little black and white dog.


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I call this a hole in a sky sunset.


And what a show it was!


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This sunset continued to deepen until it was a magenta-red/orange color. Very dramatic!

To the south was Cottonwood and veils of rain were pink and soft. The sky turned from a pink to a very dramatic red-orange at the end. And the clouds even got pink lining right at the last moment. I walked home in the dark tonight because I’d waited for the finale.


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Here is a beautiful sunset over Cottonwood with Mingus Mountain in the background; very pink and breathtaking

And then the sky got very dramatic....

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Here's the drama of the sunset with the veils of rain. You have seen plenty of photos of veils of rain--but you know--each one is as different as a fingerprint....that is what is so magical about the unfolding mystery of spirit in our lives...never the same two times in a row....always a surprise and a reward for its uniqueness






In Spirit....

A Day of Gifts

Hi Everyone!

House cleaning, as we all know, is an ongoing, perpetual motion machine of its own. And today, I continued to do that stuff by moving the four stereo speakers out of the hogan to my new office--thanks to Dave. And I retrieved my drum and brought her back to the hogan, which is her real home.


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Progress on the hogan today! Dave got all four speakers up to the new office. Ibrought along the electronic equipment. You can see that the corner is cleaned up. And, best of all, I hung my drum up on the west wall of the hogan. She's a 'traveling' drum. When this drum is played, she sends people on journeys--sometimes a past life, or to some place in this life, that they need to be. She's a very powerful drum and was made by a woman. The hide is elk. She has a deep, throaty resonance that I just love.

And I trundled along with the amplifier, CD player, tape player and all the cords dragging behind me.

And I washed all the windows, inside, the new office. I also washed them on the door as well--inside and out. I happen to have a big bug smear across one window and it made a really good streak. As I was looking out the smear, everything was distorted outside of the window. I began to think of how I distorted things -- how we all do -- and that I wished we had a big can of window cleaner to get us out of our skewed, distorted position. But no such luck! The way we get out of a distortion is by drawing people or events into our lives that mirror our distortion to us--and sooner or later, by Grace or good luck, we will finally get it.


After I put more books away (Dave found a whole bunch in another room of the house and I really want all my wonderful identification books on botany away from flood potential, so he brought a box or two more to be shelved in the new office), I decided it was time to get busy on our house and do some serious cleaning. After all, we were cleaning the hogan and the new office--why not the house we live in? There’s a clue!


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Here is on view of my 8-sided hogan. It sits in the green house area. Note that there are nine mesquite trees,in a circle, around it. Those trees were here when we came and were indicative of a vortex being in the center of this circle of trees. We literally built the hogan respectively to the circle of trees and even the small porch, Dave made holes around each tree trunk so that they could continue to be there and be a part of this wonderful feminine energy.

Between runs, I'd go back to the kitchen to get a huge drink of water--it was really hot and muggy today. And....as I passed the bathroom, I saw this:


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Here's a funny: Jawee (Navajo for: "He hears but he doesn't listen....") is a bathroom sink kitty. He's twelve years old and weighs 20 pounds and he's known as King Kat around here. I picked him up on the Navajo Reservation back in 1992 and he's been with us every since--doing his funny things--like sleeping all day in the bathroom sink!


While I was busy making us lunch, Dave brought my canary yellow Dyson out of the hogan to the house. He vacuumed for awhile,and then I took over. I noticed there was a whistling sound and that meant the Hepa filter wasn’t locked into place correctly. As I pushed down on it, I heard a THUMP-GLUG-GLUG!!! I looked into the clear plastic canister and what do I see but a huge wad of dog and cat hair along with a cup of dirt flying out of the Hepa filter and into the canister. It had been STUCK in there--effectively blocking a good fifty percent of the possible dirt that could have gotten sucked up--and it got stuck there. No wonder the poor machine was huffing and puffing!


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Here is another view of the hogan that Dave built for me in 1991. Ed "Eagle Man" McGaa came in for a visit in March, 1991 and helped build our first sweatlodge on the property. The hogan was almost completed by the time Ed came for a visit.

And of course, I was looking at the vacuum and myself. So, I had a big hair ball in me just like the machine did. And mine sure came rumbling and blowing out like a cannon ball just as the Dyson’s did! We all have blocks. That’s something we can count on. None of us are perfect. We’re all down here learning and this is a pretty brutal place to learn because spiritually speaking, the pedal is to the metal, to borrow an eighteen-wheeler term.


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Here is a very moody looking western sky.


And when we have a ‘blowup’ literally or figuratively speaking, it can be like feeling cosmically constipated and then the BIG FLUSH arrives and THUMP-GLUG-GLUG--there it goes, blasting loose and hurtling into the vacuum cleaner (or toilet bowl) of Life! And we all know the relief we get when we pass a big one--on or off the toilet....


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Here is another thunder being on the western horizon--just like last night--but what a difference, eh?



And once the BLOCK is REMOVED, there is certainly a period of relief with a lot of quiet so that you can begin to assimilate it all, integrate and apply your new awareness(es). Sort of like riding a tricycle before you graduate to a two-wheel bike with training wheels....and then the real thing, a two-wheel bike with no training wheels.


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Here is Rocky doing his 'Rin Tin Tin' pose on a rock at Sunset Point. What a ham!


We go through process over and over again. Ad nauseum. But we all do it. And we’re past masters of it at this point. And it doesn’t matter what age we are. The good thing about this is usually, as we get older, we understand the process, the laws of the cosmos that apply, and get on with ‘the work’ so that we can get through it in better shape than we did when we were younger. There’s something to say about age after all....


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On some nights, when the light is just right...everything is "just right" you get what I call a 'watercolor' sunset....this reminds me very much of Japanese paintings and there is such a sense of wonderment, calm and quiet beauty--as if someone had used her watercolors and this was the result....

And it was lovely to go meditate in my hogan this afternoon. I listened to Devi Prem--a gift CD from my Swiss friend, Michele Burdet, many years ago--and it was lovely to just drift into myself.

It has been a day of gifts! I love gift days, don’t you? We all get them. And I savor them when they occur. For starters, I had just gotten done with my meditation when Dave came back and guess what he had as a thoughtful gift for me? A Starbucks “Strawberries and Cream” Frappaccino--a big one! It has been so hot and muggy here, nonstop and we’ve been working so hard, that this was indeed, an unexpected treat! Whatta guy! Wish I could clone him and give copies of him to every woman--we wouldn’t have the grief we have between men and women if that could happen.

And then, I had ordered a Coldwater Creek vest--called the Peacock Vest (this has more story to it so look below....). It arrived along with a mandarin color white cotton long-sleeved blouse. I put them on and they fit. I loved the colors of the Peacock vest--purples, golds, blues and greens.

Lastly--you know things always come in 3’s....I was working on my book DARK TRUTH, and decided to take a break and look at my email. And there was my 3rd surprise! My wonderful lightning photo that I’d taken in late July had been chosen by Channel 15 (ABC/Phoenix, AZ) TV station to showcase the ‘lightning/monsoon’ photos sent in by viewers--and mine is on the front! WOW! That was terrific and unexpected. And if that wasn’t enough, he’s putting on the FRONT PAGE of the Channel 15 website--DOUBLE WOW! Here’s Dan’s two emails:

hi Eileen,

Thank you for your recent weather photo submission. As always you have some breathtaking photos! :)

We've created an online gallery featuring your photo (and other viewers' photos) on ABC15.com. You can view this special lightning gallery here:

http://www.abc15.com/gallery/slideshow/index.asp?doc=lightning/main.html

Thank you again for your photo, and thanks for visiting ABC15.com!

And Dan’s second email:

And fyi -- in case you haven't seen the front page of ABC15.com, I just posted a cropped version of your photo as a "tease" on our homepage, to entice viewers to click into the slideshow. It shows up under the top 3 news stories (you may have to click your web browser's "refresh/reload" button to see the photo tease, as I just added it about 5 minutes ago).

http://www.abc15.com



.:[Dan Sobczak, New Media Content Mgr
.:[ABC15 Phoenix
.:[www.abc15.com

So much for my '15 minutes of fame'. Let’s talk about peacocks now. My mom and I feed the birds around here. I happen to have 2 bird feeders by our north fence. I feed the birds morning and late afternoon. Well, this idiot male peacock likes to wake us at the ungodly hour of 5 a.m.! He thinks he’s a rooster and supposed to honk up the sun! One good thing, all the tail feather’s he’s gifting us with we are collecting and giving to Linda Metzler, who wants them. Right now, I could wring his scrawny blue neck....



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Here's "Bird Brain", the male peacock who is moulting and dropping all his beautiful tail feathers. However, this idiot bird, who has no mate, and is lonely, loves to come over to the bird seed feeders just to be around the 50 or so birds that eat there. And he sits there and preens and pulls out his feathers which are scattered all over the place. Worse, he hops up on top of our roof at 5 a.m. in the morning and honks away--waking us up. So, we have a love-hate relationship with our bird brain intruder.


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Here's my two bird feeders. We feet Mourning Doves, red finches, cardinals, mexican cardinals, sparrows and other friendly birds.



On my walk tonight, I had, one, two, three buzzards fly over me at very low altitude. All three were heading for the cut of the road. Sometimes, they will roost in that area. As I drew near, I really began looking for them. The light wasn’t good because of the thunder being spread across the sky. I couldn’t find them. On the last hill going up to Sunset Point, I suddenly spied one of the buzzards--right on top of a telephone pole fifty feet away! Wow, was he close! I stopped and sent him a mental telepathy ‘hello’ and asked if she had a message for me. Of course, she did. I shot a lot of photos of her but without a zoom close up lens (coming in late october....it can’t be too soon!) all I get are blurry silhouettes. But at least you can see her perched up there. Amazing, because buzzards just do not come this close to human beings--ever. And I’ve been having my fair share of interactions with them at very close footage the last month. Buzzards are about transformation...do I have a clue?


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Here's my friend the buzzard waiting fifty feet away from me, perched up on a telephone pole. They don't stick around humans,so this is indeed, a rare gift to see this magnificent bird so close.

And then, we climbed up to Sunset Point. I fed my harvester ants and tonight, wore my screen netting over my head because the no-seeums were awful. But, the wait was worth it.


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On the way home,just before we started down to Jon's vineyard I turned around and looked to see some fiery red-orange ribbon on the horizon. Very intense. Beautiful!


And the sunset was interesting, changeable and I actually had several to choose from. Which is your favorite? The first was a lovely water color scene to the North, near Sedona.


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Here is a second 'water color' sunset--the colors changed a bit from the first one--still, just as movingly beautiful.

This was a changeable sunset tonight. Many different colors, layers and variations and intensities going on all at the same time.


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This is pink clouds to the North, over Sedona after sunset.


And then, we had drama on the western horizon.



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Now, here's a dramatic sunset! And hard to believe, but to the north, we had that lovely 'water color' sunset.

Even coming back on the road, the colors were still changing remarkably.


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And this was the last photo I took before we went back down into the canyon for the night....

In Spirit....

Spiritual Housekeeping....

Hi Everyone!

I always find it interesting to watch people--but that includes myself, too. Maybe, because I’m a writer, I pay attention to a lot of nuances other people don’t have to check out or watch. In building a character for a book, it’s all about nuances....shades...hues...tones...